Still....

Sunday 3 May 2009

Still...
No reply yet...every 15 minutes i have checked my mail..carried my phone to every where i go..(even in washroom, the point was don’t miss those calls or a text which i was expecting)..

Morning...noon..evening...& night...no response...lots of doubts dear..

Did she read the letter? or what will be the -ve part?
Restless evening...walked few miles.. sited alone..

No....thoughts are following me like anything..cant divert from it...how i gone into it,these much deeper?? Questions...Answers...fighting with my mind...

As i got an advise from my friend..you are going through its just “crush” !!

Is it? i asked my self several times...”NO” it is not a just crush...i’m sure..because i ever done anything in my life which feels “right” to myself...

Yet, after all these tensions; when i feels about her im getting immense of +ve energy which can beat all of my restlessness easier..

I didn't meet or see her after i given the letter; because i felt both of them need a breathing space & need time to decide..let have it...

However im loosing my hope when the each seconds or the second needle moves forward...